What if I knew I can't f_uck it up?

Remember when you were a child
and felt like you could do anything?

You weren’t afraid to ask for what you needed.
You weren’t afraid to dream big.
You weren’t calculating your every move.
You just followed what felt exciting.

That’s the energy behind this painting.
And the question I carried into the studio that day:

What if I knew I can’t fuck it up?
What if there’s no such thing as failure — only steps, choices, growth?

I asked myself:

If I truly believed that…
– how would I make decisions?
– how would I show up in my work?
– how would I connect with people?
– how would I choose — in business, in love, in life?

I let that belief guide me.
And painting from that place?
It was fun.
It was free.

And here’s the amazing side effect:
When you ask yourself this question,
you bypass the fear.
You get right to the core of what you actually want —
not what you think is realistic, safe, or allowed.

Most of the time, we don’t even let ourselves go there.
But this question has the potential to be
a shortcut to your desire.

Mixed Media on canvas · 50 × 50 cm · 2025

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I had a poster on my wall that said:
“Where do you go when you are lost?”
I looked at it every day – and it hurt.
Because I didn’t know.
I kept searching for direction in the outside world.
Books. Advice. Other people.
But I felt like a leaf in the wind, swaying, unsure.

Then I read a line in Hesse’s Siddhartha that changed everything:

“Some are like stars – they follow their own course. No wind reaches them.”

That hit something deep in me.
I wanted to be a star.
I wanted to find my way – not from outside, but from within.

So I wrote a note and stuck it under the poster:
“Find the compass within.”
That’s where this painting begins.

I started following what made me feel alive – even if it didn’t make sense.
I went dancing again.
After every class, I felt light. Connected.
Later, I realized: this was how I found my first values – through resonance, not reason.

INNER LIGHT was born from that energy.
From the feeling of returning to myself.
From joy. From movement.
From following the spark, again and again.

What lights you up – really?
And what if following that spark is the way back to yourself?

Mixed Media on canvas · 50 × 50 cm · 2024

Canvas print editions available in different sizes

Being yourself sounds simple. But it’s brave work.

For a long time, I held back.
I wanted to be seen – but not judged.
To be real – but not “too much.”

Until I realized:
At the end of the day, I’d miss the whole point of my life if I didn’t at least try to be fully myself.

Painting became the space where I stopped performing.
I didn’t care how it would be received.
I just wanted to be me.

Realness is beauty. Truth is enough.
And when you carry your truth like a talisman –
you give others permission to do the same.

This piece is about that feeling. The freedom of saying:

BE YOU, BAE.

Mixed Media on canvas · 80 × 80 cm · 2025

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Mixed Media on canvas · 50 × 50 cm · 2025

Canvas print editions available in different sizes

This painting emerged from repeated waves of shame that surfaced once I made the decision to step into visibility as an artist.

Instead of pushing them away, I chose to meet them gently. The process was raw and somatic—each mark a moment of confrontation, release, or acceptance.

Vulnerability and visibility live together here: messy, alive, honest. This work is not a resolution, but a practice. A way of saying: I’m here. Even with this.

Mixed Media on canvas · 50 × 50 cm · 2025

Canvas print editions available in different sizes

Mixed Media on canvas · 50 × 50 cm · 2024

Canvas print editions available in different sizes